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i miss the times when i was young and life never seemed less painful.

Belonging . . . . my ass

I'm sitting at my desk at 4.07am trying to digest this 'Belonging' bullshit which we're gonna be tested on today during our English exam at 9am.

F**k Australian English. . . -.-

if only. . .

if only trees weren't green.
if only the sky isn't blue.
if only birds don't fly.
if only the sun never comes up.
if only i never moved to Sydney
if only i was still 14 when things were going great with you.
if only i never went back to high school.
if only i never said or do those things that i wanna take back so badly.
if only i gave a little more away.
if only there was you. . .

but reality kicks in everytime. because..

the trees are green.
the sky is blue.
birds do fly.
the sun does come up.
i did move to Sydney.
i'm no longer 14 and i don't know you anymore
i did go back to high school.
i did say or do those things and there's no way of taking them back
i didn't give enough away
and i don't have you.

there are so many things that i could've changed in my life and would've led me down another path. the truth of the matter is. . . you can't change history. but you CAN change the future. in the past coupla years, i've learnt that whatever you do today, is a gift for tomorrow. . . .shit happens in life, but nobody ever said that life would be perfect. we just gotta appreciate the wonders of life, the good or bad, the highs or lows. and stop complaining about what you could've done.

so yes, i went back to high school. i was hella cranky about that fact at first, being a year behind, hanging around younger people was a waste of my time, high school was bull shit, my life was a shithole. but then i realised that it isn't all that bad. i've got to know such beautiful and caring people with unbelievably warm hearts that just drowns all my hatred away. people that wants to get to know you and be there for you, its all i ever needed.

unfinished business

ok its been a veeeeery long time since i last blogged. i closed down my previous blog page like what. . . 3 years ago? and i feel like i have alot to say lately so i guess i suddenly decided to go back to pouring my spining twirly thoughts onto this page. sorry if you have to put up with it. but then if you dun like it then fuck off. dun read it. :P

i dunno why i open up a new blogger site in the middle off my HALF YEARLIES EXAM. i have great timing i know. -.- i guess i just had a 3 hr paper today on how injured athletes should manage their injuries and that knocked a few things into my head today. like for instance, when i went for a walk with Ada Lo today (which is what we usually do in the evenings during exam times so we can clear our heads from hrs of sitting at the table and facing books), i've was a little crazy when i acted like a moron while walking on the streets with ppl driving pass giving us weird looks.

PDHPE knocks psycho-ness into ppl - don't say i didn't warn you.